writings: the diaries
of otto dix
In July 1943 the battle of Kursk was fought.

Stalingrad was the turning point of the war. It was the
beginning of the end.  The end came at Kursk. Kursk
was the last nail in the coffin.

The Russians had punched a huge hole in the German
lines and thru it poured 10 divisions. The result was a
giant bulge in the front swarming with troops. It was
Hitlers idea to attack the flanks of this bulge from North
and south and pinch it off  and bag a  few hundred
thousand Russians in the process. It  would be a
thrilling victory and the provide the boost the         
Germans needed to regain the initiative and get the
war  rolling again.

There were mixed feelings about this operation. Hitler
wasnt  so sure himself. Manstein thought there was a
chance  if the operation was launched at once while
the Russians were still  in the process of consolidating
their positions.

The Russians knew what was coming and were racing
madly to  re/enforce their defense. Time was the factor
here.

But Hitler stalled. He could not make up his mind.
Precious   time was lost and it proved fatal. The
Russians knew what was  coming and they were ready.
This time it was the russans who absorbed the  first
blow and   counterattacked. It was over in 9 days. It
didnt have a  prayer.

It was Hitlers last offensive. The entire front was in flux.
The Germans were on the ropes.
home
Today a letter from Luck.


Dear Dix:

I am in North Africa.  The war goes badly here.  We are
short  on fuel, tanks--and spare parts for the tanks we do
have. We have the guns but no shells.  There is no air
cover. Yesterday  Rommel himself was shot up.  It was a
close call. The driver  was killed. Rommel got a bump on
the head.

Rommel is ready to snap. Everything goes to Russia.
Hitler cares only for the Eastern front. The campaign in
africa is a sideshow for him.  He never wanted to involve
himself in this  campaign to begin with. It was done to
appease Mussolini.  Hitler would help out in Africa and
Mussolini would ship a few Itailans off to Russia  where
they proved to have small  apetite for the fighting.

R has made several trips to Italy to meet with Kesselring
and the Italian Generals. They give him a good meal and
promise to  send supplies.  Then he gets back and
nothing happens.  Yesterday we got several truckloads
of woolen underwear  longjohns.

Meanwhile the Americans have landed in Morocco. The
Americans  are still a question mark. They have the men
and the supplies  but can they fight. We will see.

Its all a long way from Paris. I spent a week there.  My        
girlfriend is still on the scene  keeping a sharp eye on the
wine stash. So it was me and her and various sponging
friends and fellow soldiers. We put a major dent in the
wine hoard. Otherwise I ate, strolled about and hit a few
museums.

I called on Picasso. He was very nice to me. It helped to    
mention your name. He doesnt like Germans. He showed
me some  paintings  including a beautiful drawing of the
girl who works for him. I asked to  buy this. It wasnt for
sale. I dropped the subject. Later, on my way out, I
returned to the subject. I mentioned cigarettes. We went
back and forth. He sold me the drawing for 3 cartons.  I
may have gotten burned here. But I love the drawing.

I also had lunch with your friend Mother Ey. An amazing
woman. There is no problem with conversation. She was
glad to have news of you. I gave her coffee.

I just want to thank you for the hospitality. I enjoyed         
meeting your friends. It encourages me to think we may
yet survive this war with a little of our humanity still
intact. Sometimes I see these things and I am not so sure.

Regards,

Luck





Chess with Trott

I have been seeing Trott.  He likes the country.
He enjoys the boredom. It is the relentless  
tedium of the country that provides the perfect
climate required for the endless fiddling and
speculation of philosophy.

We also play chess. I have resurrected my
game.  The edge goes to Trott here. There is a
contrast of styles. Mine resembles Hitler--
attack at all times and refuse to yield an inch  
a fight to the death of the last pawn.

Trott is a von Manstein type  the elastic
defense concept to suck you in  and then the
sudden devastating assault sprung upon the
flank.

We played one game in which he sacrificed his
queen. I had never seen this done. I have seen
a queen sacrificed during the endgame only.
This occurred as an opening move. I thought it
was a  brief mental lapse.

I said: your queen is up for grabs.

He said yes.

You are sacrificing your queen?

Yes.

I looked over the board.

I looked over the board. I continued to look
over the board. He had something up his
sleeve  but what? I saw nothing.

I snatched  the queen.

Now there followed a vicious  sequence of
moves that I was helpless to prevent and
gradually ate every piece I owned and at
the end of this carnage he said: mate.

It was brilliant. I was in shock.

He got it from a chess book he had been
reading. The move was first performed by an
American  a youth of 14 named Paul Brophy  
in a tournament played in 1918.

We spoke of the war. The war is Trotts baby.
He is like a cow that needs to be milked every
day.

There is much talk of the invasion of France.
This has been going on for 2 years. What are
the allies waiting for waiting for?

They are waiting for more Germans to die in
Russia.This is Trotts view. And he is correct.
How many Americans have died in this war  
50,000?.  The Russians lose that many in two
days--every two days.  And we arent far
behind. The Allies arent stupid. They will jump
in and invade France when it best suits them to
do so. Stalin has been hounding them for 2
years to establish a second front. They have
kept him somewhat pacified by sending war
material which he desperately needs. But
otherwise they are perfectly happy to stand by
on the sidelines and observe the carnage--the
more the better. The Russians are managing to
hang on and even beginning to take the
initiative. We are being bled white.



Martha is here.

She has some disturbing news. Our house
burned down. It was an accident. Or so we
think. She was at work and got a call from a
neighbor. She rushed home to see the house in
flames. She became hysterical. She tried to
run inside. The fire trucks were there but it
was too late. It burned to the ground.

She is in terrible shape.  Ive seen this look
before. Its the look of a soldier who has been
on the receiving end of a massive artillery
barrage for several days without relief. It is a
combination of disorientation and apathy--a
complete disassociation from reality. She is
constantly bursting into tears. I/ve shed a few
tears myself. Its like losing a family member.

We still dont know the facts. Could it be arson?
Martha doesnt have an enemy in the world.
And neither do I. Hans  the Nazi  has a few.

I think its an accident. Its a frequent
occurrence these days  with the utilities system
in total chaos due to the bombings.

Its a complete loss. The insurance companies
have not been honoring too many home
coverage policies lately.


Christmas.

We are in the country. There is a full house. Its
me and Martha and the kids and my parents
and Vera and Bernard and Trott and Tanya and
the baby and Felix and Ava and Jaochim.

I like Christmas. I like getting presents.
Martha got me some drawing goods  paper, a
set of litho crayons and inks,_______,
etc. Vera and B got me a print of a Nolde
woodcut. The Felixmullers got me socks and a
tie. My mother gives me socks and a tie.

My parents are a big hit. They have energy.
My mother is amazing. She is 80.  That means
she has another 40 years to go. She gets up at
4 am and goes full blast until 10pm and then
falls over.

My father and Bernard had a lively chat. About
what? The name of Goring popped up at some
point. I know what Goring would like for
Christmas: a kind word from Hitler. He has lost
major points with Hitler. This is the man who
said  not a single enemy plane would penetrate
the skies over Germany. Them the bombs
started to fall like rice at a wedding.  And
continue to do so.

Goring still remains popular with the people.  
But the people dont count. Hitler counts. But
otherwise the war was not mentioned.

We eat we, drink, we open presents.

Joachim sits down at the piano and we gather
round and sing

Christmas carols. Next year we may be singing
these songs in

Russian. But for now its a precious moment.
Tanya is gone.

She was here and then she wasnt here.  The
store is empty. There is no note.

Well--this had to happen. She has a life she
needs to get on with. She must determnine the
fate of her husband and if he is dead start
looking around for a new one. Woman must
marry.  It is their nature. I cant help her here.
To continue as we were--eating veal, drinking
martinis and fucking in front of the fire--was an
intolerable situation.


Beethoven Concert.

We gathered in the square. It was a perfect
day. This is a good orchestra. The musicians
are all locals. But there are some good
musicians here. The conductor is a lawyer. The
program is Mozart, Brahms, Beethoven--the
4th piano concerto. The pianist is Joachim
Felixmueller, age 14.

I love the music of Beethoven.  It is interesting
to speculate that if B were alive today the 3rd
symphony would be dedicated not to Napolean
but to Hitler.

B was the classic artist: he worked and was
humiliated by women. The word genius applies
here. Someone has said: before you can be
great you have to be good. Someone else said:
genius is in the details. Someone else said: a
genius creates order from confusion. The fact
is: the word is meaningless. But if it doesnt
apply to Beethoven it applies to no one.

What about Hitler? Hitler is a genius.  He is a
political genius. Now the country is in ruins and
10,000,000 Germans are dead and we have
the Russians on our doorstep.

But people are funny--or maybe it is the
Germans. They are still behind this man. Why?
Because he is God.  He has convinced them of
this.  That was Goebbels job. And he did a
good job.

This piano is a splendid instrument. A Bechstein
super grand. I love this piece--esp the second
movement. I get goose bumps.  

Joachim is fabulous. I cant believe the progress
he is making. He is a natural. He makes it look
easy. It is a feeling for the music and an
instinctive sense for structure, momentum,
mantaining the thread  and the sense of
dynamics. He plays with great spirit and a
huge tone. He has the bravura touch. He is
theatrical.  Even the mistakes sound good. He
makes his share of mistakes.  But he makes
them with authority--the same thing I used
to tell my students. The mistakes dont bother
him. He keeps steaming. He shows enormous
maturity here.

The piece is performed to thunderous applause
and we adjourn for coffee and cake. Meanwhile
in Berlin the bombs are falling like rice at a
wedding.




The allies have landed. Now we are finished.
The only question is: who gets to Germany
first. God help us if its the Russians.

Martha goes back and forth to Berlin  or  what
is left of it.  Berlin is being systematically
bombed to extinction.  It is a city of rubble.
Still we plug along. It is amazing. The country
is in ruins and Hitler has not made a public
appearance or given a speech in a year. Yet
they remain convinced he is going to pull them
out of this mess. There is much talk of a
wonder weapon. I also talk of the wonder
weapon. I wonder where it is.

Meanwhile  I paint. I paint, paint, paint. My
still lifes are improving.



Lunch with Vera.

She visits from time to time. She still works for
the Foreign Ministry. In this way we get some
useful information. The Allies have held a big
conference in Casablanca. There they declared
their intentions: unconditional surrender. We
can accept this one or not. If we decide to
continue the war  fine. It just means more dead
Germans. Already  in the last six months more
Germans have died than in the last six years.
Its a slaughter. But this is Hitler. He has the
hard head. He will never give up. He will fight
to the last German--himself.

What is happening with our friend Trott? Trott
is in Switzerland. What is he doing in
Switzerland.  She doesnt know. He is behaving
very mysteriously these days. I said he always
behaves this way. He is a Christian. They
behave mysteriously. Its part of the  role.

The latest dope is that some peace feelers
have gone out  to England and the US.  There
is a new line.  The new line is that the real
enemy for England and the United States is not
Germany. Its Russia.  If Germany is defeated
Russia will rule Europe.  England needs to think
about his.  Maybe England and the United
States should drop the war against Germany
and the three countries unite to throw back the
Russians--these miserable scum.

This is wishful thinking in my view. Its more
than that.  Its just plain dumb. There will be no
deals. They have us by the balls.  We are
finished. It is only a question of time.  The war
will end and Hitler and the rest of that gang
will be shot  if they havent already done the
job themselves.



I do a painting of Vera.

I am pleased with the result. I think I have
captured something of the appeal of this
woman--not only the sense of presence--the
physical vibes--but something of the inner
spirit--the
simpatica quality. I have to be
careful here. The edict to paint portraits has
not been rescinded. The country is in ruins,
the Allies have landed and the Russians are on
our doorstep. But the Gestapo has not
forgotten the paintings of Otto Dix!
I am in jail.

How did this happen?  It happened fast. I
was home painting a still life and there was a
knock on the door and I opened the door and
there was the Gestapo. They invited me to
come with them for some questions. What
were these questions? This they couldnt say.
Their orders were to pick me up. Everything
would be explained.

We drove to Berlin  to Gestapo headquarters.
Every building in Berlin has been destroyed
but this one.

The La Scala in Milan is the venue to attend a
performance of Don Giovanni, you have the
Louvre for Art and its the English Channel for
long distance swimming and the ________in
the Bendlerstrasse  is the perfect place for
the interrogation of criminal suspects.

This was the final destination of the victims of
the Rohm putsch. They lined them up 10 at a
time in the bowels of this place and blasted
away. The wall was splattered with brains
and guts. Then the next batch of ten were
marched in and given a good look at this
stew dripping down and they were lined up.

I can see this wall from my cell.  The stains
remain.

This is my third visit to Gestapo
headquarters. But I have always been
released. This time no. Why am I here? I
found out soon enough. The first question
was: you are a friend of AdamTrott are you  
not?

I said yes.

Did you know that Adam Trott is seriously
implicated in the plot to kill the Fuhrer?

I said: no

There were more questions along these lines:

Did I know that Trott made frequent trips to
Switzerland for the purpose of contacting the
American Allan Dulles to negotiate a
separate deal for Germany in the event Hitler
was assassinated?

I said no.

Did I know that Stauffenberg, the swine who
planted the bomb at Army headquarters,  
knew Gisevious who knows Treskow who is a
good friend of von Haeften who is a good
friend of yours?

I said no.

Did I know that Stauffenberg owned one of
my paintings?

The answers were no, no, no, no, and no.

I have asked to  call my wife. Permission
denied. My wife will be notified.

Back to my cell.


I spent the nite. I spent two nites. It was
relatively quiet. I heard no sounds of torture.
I/m told they have a new method of torture.
They use a dental surgeon. He doesnt pull
teeth. He just drills. A painkiller is not used  
obviously. The results have been excellent.

How true are these stories? That isnt the
point. The point is that the stories exist and
they have their effect. They produce fear.
The fear is  real. We know the Nazis are
capable of any cruelty that can be imagined
and performing it with  unlimited zeal.

Fortunately my teeth are in perfect shape.

I continued with these thoughts.

The English writer George Orwell said the
secret to the  effective torture of prisoners is
to discover the thing the prisoner most fears  
physical pain, overcooked spaghetti, a poetry
reading, etc.  

With Orwell it was rats. The sight of a rat
made him wacky.

With me it is certain types of music. 5
minutes of listening to a polka and I would
turn in my grandmother.

And what about: interviewing personnel for
the position of torture specialist?

This would be a good routine for Werner
Finck.

Finck says: I have been reviewing your
resume my friend. I see you worked in for
Frank in Poland. Excellent. YOu claim to be
the first to interrogate a prisoner via a
speech by Ribbontrop. etc, etc,

These are the thoughts you get in jail  you
have all this time to yourself  it relieves you
of all responsibilities.

Also: wearing a t-shirt inside out but right
side front. Does it still fit properly?  This is
something I have always wondered about.

I thought about dying. They have resurrected
the guillotine  for treasonous behavior. Of the
many ways to die this one is near the bottom
of my list. The fact it takes but an instant
and is painless does nothing to relieve my
concern.  There is something about this
slanted blade sharpened to a hideous edge
hurtling down upon the back of my neck that
is intensely disturbing.

Maybe I should turn my thoughts to other
things.

I will work out some chess moves. It appears
I will not be using them to annihilate Trott.

Poor Trott. I knew he had an obsession with
Hitler. But it is one thing to be obsessed with
Hitler and another thing to actively involve
yourself in a plot to assassinate the man

How did he get himself mixed up in this
mess? Because he is a philosopher and Hitler
has become a philosophical issue.

The problem is that Hitler did not seize power
by force. He was the legitimately elected  or
appointed  heir to Hindenberg who was
the heir to ____________who was the heir to
____________who replaced the Kaiser.

In the modern European state as it has
evolved there exists a concept called duty.
The citizen has a duty to obey the law.  The
law forbids treason. The penalty is death.  Its
an interesting proposition.  Its a paradox.  
The ruler cannot be removed from power
because he is the ruler and he is the ruler
because he has seized power.

You had another problem: the army.
Governments arent toppled

by people with good intentions. You need an
army. In Germany the army  men and
officers alike--had sworn an oath of loyalty to
Hitler.  Not an oath to Germany but to Hitler
personally. This was a clever move on Hitlers
part. A German officer takes his oaths
seriously.  It takes an extraordinary act of
conscience to cause him to break his word.

It was Trotts view that in the person of Hitler
and the Nazi party  and the war being waged
(and lost) in Russia  this extraordinary
situation had occurred. The concept of duty
had been corrupted and a higher purpose was
involved here.

Naturally this was entirely theoretical--a
philosophical issue. He was always careful to
make this point. But this is neither here nor
there. What concerns me is getting out of jail.



I have  seen Trott.

I passed him in the hall. There were two
guards with him.

Neither of us acknowledged the other. I dont
thing he recognized me. He doesnt look
good. I looked into his eyes. It was like
looking into the void. There was nothing
there. He is already in another world.

This is a tragedy. And what About Vera.  So
far her name has not come up.


More questions.

The answer is no, no, no. Do they believe
me? I have no idea. Guilt doesnt enter into it
so much these days. The suspicion of guilt is
sufficient.


I spent three days and two nites.

Then they came and got me and told me to
gather my clothes and led me to the lobby
and there were some papers to sign and I
was released into the custody of my wife.

There she was. This was a fine moment.
Freedom is sweet. How could I ever be
unfaithful to this woman?

Later she said: you looked like you had seen
a ghost.

It was Hans Koch who got me off the hook.
He pulled every string he could think of. He
went to Goebbels.  Goebbels said: I am the
one who gave the order to lock him up.  But
Hans persisted--God bless him.  They went
back and forth for a bit. They worked out
some scheme so that Goebbels would not be
implicated here.
Today a letter from Felixmueller.


Dear Otto:

There is some news  mostly bad. Joachim has been
called up. He is serving in a Volksturm unit. These
units are not serving  in the rear. They are putting them
on the front.  They have a new device  the panzerfaust.
This is an anti tank weapon. It  was designed
specifically to be used by someone with no military
training--old men and children.  It is good for one
round only. You see  a tank, you get as close as
possible, you heave the PF up on your shoulder and
blast away. Then you run  for cover. If you make it they
give you another PF and you do it again.

Clara is hysterical. And I am not doing so well myself.
This is a child that would mourn the death of a canary.
I fear not only for my son but for my wife as well. This
child is her life. If anything happens to him I will have
lost her as well. But what can we do? There is no way
out. I have racked my  brains about this. All we can do
is pray.

I have seen your friend Trott.  He was lunching at cafe
Gruenwald. working on some chess moves. He invited
me to play a few games. We played chess and
discussed the current situation.  The rumor is that
Hitler would like to make a deal  with England and the
US. He has a new line he is trying out  that the real
enemy of the Allies is not Germany but         Russia.  
According to this scenario the Allies have an interest in
preserving the German state. The reason is Russia. If
Germany is destroyed Russia will emerge as the
master of  Europe. In view of this it makes more sense
for the allies to unite with Germany to defeat Russia.  
But the Allies dont see it this way. They see it the other
way.  There is only one deal: unconditional surrender.

This Hitler will never agree to. A few million more
germans  must die first. All this according to Trott.

Otherwise I paint.  Somehow my heart is not in it.

Yours,    F




Trial of Trott

The trials of the men involved in the 20 July
plot have begun.They are being tried by the
Peoples Court. But the people are not
attending.  This one is by invitation only.
However  Hans Koch has wangled himself a
seat. He is amazing. He could get Hitler
invited to a bar mitzvah. Friesler--the
presiding judge--is a patient. He has a
prostate condition  He couldnt pee. But Hans
fixed him up. Now he pisses like a horse.

This is a poor example of justice.

Trial is not the word here.  Its a little one
sided. These people already have their heads
in the noose.  The acquittals will be at a
minimum.

I have seen Friesler in action--against
Kirchner.  I forget the charge--some violation
of the arts code. Poor Kirchner.
Friesler made sushi of him. He went up one
side and down the other.

Friesler is a Goebbels type. He is small with a
big mouth. The face is pinched. The skin is
white. He looks like a train conductor. He is
more easily imagined in a blue uniform with
a little cap walking up and down the aisle
punching tickets than sitting up there on the
bench in the robes of a judge handing
down death sentences.

These trials are a bizarre event. They are
constantly interrupted by air raids. The court
room empties and everyone hustles
downstairs and when the all clear sounds
they hustle back upstairs and the proceedings
re convene.

The defendants dont look good.  They are
exhausted--in poor shape to defend
themselves. They have been tortured and
given nothing to eat and deprived of sleep.

Witzelben is particularly sad sight. They have
taken away his teeth and belt. He stands
there in this toothless  puckered statewith
one hand holding up his pants listening to
Friesler. Friesler goes up one side and down
the other. He is relentless.  He is a stone
nazi. This is a man who enjoys his work. And
he is good at it. He is brutal. He is a Hitler
type.  He feeds on humiliation and
degradation. This is more easily done with a
room full of police standing by to jump on the
defendant should this person have any
objection to the line of questioning.

The defendants are brutally cut off if an
attempt  is made in any way to minimize
guilt or suggest a different view In Moltkes
case a gag was applied.

You  are obliged to stand there holding up
your pants listening to Freisler rant and rave
for two hours.

There are two themes: Hitler and treason.

He began by establishing the fact that Trott
had never served in the army. While men
were fighting and dying at the front and
suffering the most bitter hardships  he was
safe and sound in Berlin meeting with his
fellow mates for the purpose of murdering
Hitler.

Had he given any thought to the men fighting
for their lives at the front? What would
happen to them if this villainous plot
succeeded.

Freisler could answer this question.

The same thing that happened in World War I
when the government made a deal with the
French and the German army--those
poor patriotic fuckers at the front fighting for
their lives to defend their country--were
stabbed in the back. Germany was plunged
into civil war and the army was abandoned to
its fate. In that case its fate was the French.
The French are bad enough. This time its the
Russians. The Russians are a different story.
Are you following
me Herr Trott?

Etc, etc

Now Friesler was rolling. This was always the
theme--the stab in the back of the army. He
had worked himself into a frenzied
state. He was ranting and raving and foaming
at the mouth. The spit was flying.

He said: You make me sick! I could vomit up!

By his time F has worked himself into such a
state that he has convinced himself that he
actually will vomit.

Remove this man! He is scum! I cant look at
him!
Trott condemned to death.

He stood listening to the sentence handed
down with no expression. His faith has not
deserted him. He is a disciple of Neimoller. He
was told he could speak some last words.

He said: if you are going to hang me you
should do it soon. Otherwise you will be strung
up first.



I am in the army.

This is my Christmas present from Hitler  a
draft notice. You are never too old to die for
your  country. They have put together
a new division  the Volksturm- the peoples
army. This is an elite group. Hitler is truly
scraping the bottom of the barrel.

It is children and old men. By children I mean
13 years old. These are not reserves  or
support personnel. They are front line troops.  
We are given panzerfaust anti tank rifles and
several hours of training. We are taught how to
leap from foxholes  or spring from behind a
pile of rubble and intercept a Russian t 34 tank
with these panzerfaust devices. Its a single
round weapon. You fire your rocket and start
running.

They also have a battalion of old duffers with
stomach problems. Its called the stomach
brigade. I speak the truth. They have their
own commissary and diet chef to provide non
inflammatory meals. Instead of ammunition
they load up on toilet paper.

God help the enemy that has to confront these
men. The ideas is this: the allies or Russians
will advance upon these troops and on cue the
codgers will form ranks, do an about face and
rip off their diapers and perform a gigantic
bowel movement and drive the enemy off with
the stink.




















Army life hasnt changed.

Its a pain in the ass. You are tired, dirty and
cold.  The cold is bitter. I hate being cold. We
spend all our time scrounging for firewood.
There is no information. You follow orders.
Mostly we walk. From time to time we
encounter the enemy  usually in the form of
American P-40's firing rockets up our ass.
There is no protection. The Luftwaffe has
ceased to exist. The thought of desertion is
always a possibility but so far there hasnt been
too much of this. They watch us like hawks. You
have as many Military Police on the prowl
looking for deserters as you have men doing
the actual fighting. The penalty for desertion is
death. And it usually occurs on the spot. There
is no trial. This would take time. Three officers
gather to discuss your case and you are shot
then and there.

An incident occurred the other day. Several
men were caught "stealing" bread from a
commissary truck that had been shot up on
the road. They were briefly questioned and
shot on the spot.

Mostly we walk. We walk, walk, walk. If
someone shoots at us we shoot back. There is
no retreat. Anyone who retreats is shot.

I have one thought  as do we all  to survive. At
least we are walking west. The one thing we all
fear is to fall into the hands of the Russians.

We are shot, mortared, land mined or
bombed. I love the sound of high explosive
falling near by.



We have been captured  thank God.

It was a little touch and go for a moment. I
came very close to blowing the brains out of a
Hitler youth type  15 years old  who was all
fired up to die for the Fueher.  But I was more
fired up to live for Otto Dix.

We were in a field outside the village of
Orlans--the hometown of Courbet. I once
visited here with Martha and the children. It

features on the outskirts a splendid chateau
owned by the
Duc de Guise.  This man was
well known as an animal conservationist and
had assembled on his property a private zoo.

The zoo still exists. It has somehow survived
the war.

So there we were scattered about being
peppered with American artillery.  The
Americans have a simple theory about combat.
Every German killed by artillery is one German
less that has to be faced in hand to hand
combat.  And they have the guns and
ammunition to apply this theory to action. The
ammo is unlimited. They are not reluctant to
fire off 5000 shells to kill 50  Germans.

So it was the Americans on one side lobbing
high explosive and the British on the other side
advancing in tanks and overhead the P-40's
firing rockets up our ass and in front of us the
lions, gorillas and alligators of the
duc de Guise.




In the POW camp.

We have one concern here  being turned over
to the Russians. They have some divisions on
their list  mostly SS troops that fought in the
Ukraine. There isnt much left of these divisions.
They have been wiped out. Many of us have
nothing to do with all this. That isnt the point.
War is chaos. Things happen for no reason. We
could still wind up doing 20 years digging for
coal in the Urals. The Allies are co operating
with the Russians here. There is great
sympathy for the Russian cause. The Russians
have lost 20,000,000--or is it 30,000,000? I
can never remember. The Americans have lost
100,000.



This place sucks.

I am too old for this bullshit. But it beats dying.
We are guarded by the Russians, the French
and the Americans. They take turns.  The
Americans are the best, the Russians the worst
and the French in between.The daily routine is
this: we get up, we eat, we clean the barracks
and thats it. The rest of the day is spent
standing around. We stand around and bitch.  
We bitch, bitch, bitch. But my question is: what
is there to bitch about? There are many sad  
stories. But who cares? I have my own
problems.  There is nothing to be done. The
dead are not coming back to life and we will be
released when we are released.

I have heard nothing from my family.

The food isnt too bad. Its an improvement
over army rations. My stomach is feeling
better. Im OK as long as I dont eat.  Ive
lost about 20 lbs.




Luck is here.

I felt this tap on my shoulder and turned
around and there he was. He looks OK  or no
worse than anyone else. He was also obliged
to raise the white flag.  This is a hard thing for
an officer. But he was in the same boat  down
to his last 40 troops and no tanks and low on
ammo and zero air cover and there were the
Americans on one side and the British on the
other and overhead the P-40's firing rockets up
his ass.

The war was lost June 6th. Rommel and
Runstedt both agreed on this one.  If Hitler had
thrown in the towel at this time 6 million
Germans would be alive today. We have lost
10,000,000 total--6 million in the last 9
months. Are my wife and children among
them?  I have no idea.

Luck has covered some ground since I last saw
him.

He went from Africa to Lithuania, down to
Poland, across Czechoslovakia and from there
back to France.

In Lithuania he fought at Memel.  I have heard
stories of this one. It was a painting by Bosch.

There are 6 ways to die in this war:

1)  shot through the head

2) beaten or stabbed or hacked to death in
hand to hand combat

3) blown to little bitty pieces by high explosive.

4) trapped in a collapsed building and burned
alive

5) death via drowning

6) ground into human paste by a tank

They all occurred in Memel. Memel is a town in
Lithuania on the Baltic connected via a narrow
landbridge to the port of Konigsberg. I visited
there once--with Vera. She has relatives in
Konigsberg.  Its a beautiful town--or was.  
During the fighting it became a toilet into which
multiple bowel movements had been
performed and a giant plunger was required to
flush it down the drain. The bowel movements  
were refugees and remnants of the German
3rd Army fighting a brave but hopeless retreat
and the plunger was the Russian army.

There is a single road leading into Memel and
God help you if you were on it. Russia has
suffered a few Memels of their own at the
hands of the German army and the time had
come to return the favor.

The Russians had waited three years for this
one. The Russians make no distinction between
soldiers and refugees. They make one
distinction. A refugee is run over by a tank and
the tank continues on its way. When its a
soldier being run over the tank throws it into
reverse and goes back and forth once or twice.
Otherwise a German is a German.




Luck speaks of Rommel.

Rommel didnt die of a heart attack.  This was a
lie. He committed suicide. The Gestapo
discovered evidence that Rommel  was
implicated in the 20 July plot. He was not a
participant but it was clear he sympathized
with the plotters. At least they had
approached him to determine his views and he
failed to report this meeting.

Getting rid of Rommel was a problem for
Goebbels. It was a public relations issue. This
man was still a great hero. So the solution
arrived at was this: Rommel would commit
suicide.  The people would be told he had a
heart attack. He would be given  a state
funeral and Hitler would deliver a rousing
eulogy. If Rommel refused he would be
arrested. There would be a trial, he would be
convicted and hung, He would be viciously
attacked in the press. His name would be
dragged thru the mud and his wife and son
sent to a concentration camp. They would be
bunking with Werner Finck.



This place is one laff after another.

There is a kid of 19 or 20  completely wacko.
He is finished. He is completely gone. He sits
on the floor in a corner and masturbates. He
masturbates, masturbates, masturbates. He
masturbates 15 times a day.  The floor is
swimming in pecker juice. There is nothing to
be done.  We scream and threaten and and
rant and rave and slap his face. But its no dice.
He is completely gone. He just sat there with
this blank look and his dick in his hand This
went on for a week. Finally he was taken
away.


Ive had some luck.

I was hanging around the yard sketching away.
An officer wandered by--an American. He
stopped to look at my sketch. We began to
chat. He is a painter himself.  He is from
Chicago. I recalled for him my visit to that city
and the episode with the torpedoes at the
restaurant Luna.  He was studying me intently.

He asked my name.  I told him.

He said: youre my favorite painter.

He asked what I was doing here.

I said: they told me it was World War 1.



My situation has improved. My friend Larry  
the American from Chicago  has gotten me a
job. I am working in the hospital  cleaning
toilets. It beats hanging around the yard
listening to my fellow inmates bitch.


Hitler is dead. He committed suicide.

This is a fine way for a man to go who has
been haranguing us for 12 years about his role
as the savior of Germany and all the things he
was going to do for the German people.

We dont know the details. He was holed up in
a bunker in the Chancellery and he shot
himself and had his body burned. Now we
will never find out the truth about the one
testicle story.

This is called the end of the era.

I have mixed feelings about Hitler. He was a
swine and an interesting man. He did a lot for
Germany. You only have to look around. The
country is in ruins and 10,000,000 GErmans
are dead and I am in a POW camp.

Also it was  the Nazi attitude towards art  
which can be traced directly to Hitler  that got
me fired from my teaching job  13 years ago. I
still have hard feelings about this one.  I liked
that job. I could be there now anticipating
retirement on a fat pension. Instead I am in a
POW camp cleaning toilets--and the fate of my
wife and family remains a question mark.

Hitlers mistake was to invade Russia. What a
price we have paid for this  and will continue to
pay. But it was inevitable.  He was a man who
fed on hatred. His greatest pleasure was
seeing the blood of an enemy spilled. At the
top of the list were the jews and slavs. The
jews were an easy mark. Also the Poles. The
Russians were a different story. It was this
obsessive hatred for Russia that undid him. If
the invasion of Russia had not occurred and he
decided to satisfy himself with the conquest of
Poland  or even France  he would have gone
down in history as a great man--one of the
greatest.

But this is academic. Its spilt milk. I am still in
a POW camp  cleaning toilets  and my release
is still a question mark. And I still have no
word about my family.


I am drawing portraits of my fellow prisoners.
Now that Hitler is dead my status as a
degenerate artist is no longer an issue and I
am free to draw the human face and figure. It
hasnt gotten easier.

However I still have my touch.  In fact a few
new twists have appeared from somewhere
and entered my style. I am getting some
interesting results. My genius has not deserted
me.



This is interesting.

Yesterday I  was at work at the hospital
cleaning toilets and in walks Albert Speer.

I thought it was him. And he thought it was me.
We werent sure. Its been a few years and
we/ve had our ups and downs.

Speer has greatly aged. He is 40 and looks 60.

Otto!

Albert--
amigo!

He is quartered nearby  in a wing of the
hospital. A few of his mates are with him  
including Goring, Schact, Kaltenbrunner and
Syss-Inquart.

We spoke for a few minutes. He asked about
Martha and the children. I said there was no
news.  She is somewhere in the west  I think.
His family is in Strasberg They are OK.

This man is in deep shit. He started out an
architect and ended up a war criminal. How
could this happen? It was a combination of two
things--the charisma of Hitler and Speers own
insatiable ambitions. Its the story of Faust.
Hitler has been the inspiration for many new
spinoffs of this tale.

But this is life. Now they have these war trials
coming up and Speer is implicated big time.
There was major use of forced labor to
maintain production as the war continued. He
is responsible for this. His signature appears on
many documents.

These trials will be interesting.  They will be
the allied version of Freislers Peoples Court.
Too bad Freisler is dead. They could de-Nazify
him and use for the prosecution. He would
make sushi of these people.

At least Ribbontrop will hang. This is a man no
one has any use for. It was Ribbontrop as
much as Hitler who got us into thismess--if that
is the word.

Some of these people richly deserve to hang.
Hanging is too good for them. They are
gangsters. They are worse than gangsters.
Gangsters kill each other. These people are
responsible for the death of 10,000,000
Germans.



Yesterday I met Goring.

He came in for a poop. He was sitting there on
the bowl and we began to chat.

He likes to talk. He is a Mother Ey type.

Goring says: Its too bad Im going to die Dix.  I
could help you get some commissions. I
always liked your work. The war cripples
didnt bother me. I saw the humor. I had
nothing to do with that Munich show.  I didnt
agree with Hitler. In  my opinion you had
earned the right to draw a few war cripples.
But there was nothing I could do. Culture was
not my department. This wasexclusively
reserved for Hitler.



Sketching Goring.

I do it while he performs his daily bowel
movement. Goring isnt so bad.  Yes  he is a
swine. But he is a charming swine. He enjoys
life. Whatever he happened to be doing--  
eating, hunting animals--or people--designing
clothes, taking drugs, confiscating the property
of jews--he did it with energy and great
satisfaction. There was a style here. He wasnt
the typical Nazi thug. He had taste in art  
unlike Hitler. Hitler was too sappy and
sentimental  and inclined to the heroic  in this
respect. Although with Hitler his real feelings
were always a mystery. Everything  including
his taste in art  was motivated by politics.

Goring has dropped a few pounds. This is a
man who once weighed 14 stone.Prison has
done him some good. He has recovered
some of the old energy. But it is somewhat
revealing of the fall he has taken. He knows he
will hang.  This is certain.

Goring says: its too bad. I dont look forward to
it. But I have no intention of betraying my
loyalty to Adolph Hitler as I can assure you
some of these other scum are going to do  
and I can tell you who they are. They are
willing to dishonor themselves to save their
miserable hides and for what--to pee in
front and crap from behind for a few more
years. I dont buy it. I have two regrets: that I
wont live to see my daughter grow up; and
that Bormann is not here to hang with us. How
I would love to get my hands on  that pig for 5
minutes. I would strangle him to death with
my bare hands. And there are a lot of people
who would be happy to watch.

Speer also had a few things to say about
Bormann. This man was seriously hated  or
feared  among the inner circle. He must have
had more power than we thought. Interesting.
There is not too much known about him. He
kept a low profile. His picture rarely appeared
in the papers.

Goring says: I never wanted this war.  I was
against it from the beginning. It was
Ribbontrop. Ribbontrop is as much to blame as
Hitler. What an imbecile!

Goring makes the point that these trials are a
farce. War is war. People die. What about the
bombings of Dresden. 140,000 people--all
civilians  were burned alive. What was the
military objective here? There wasnt a factory
within 70 kilometers.


Today a letter from F. He and Clara are OK.  
There is still no news of Joachim.


Luck is gone. Where? I have no idea. He was
here  and then he wasnt here.  My guess is
Russia.


I am still here.  Why?  Good question.  The
Allies have won the war. The problem is: what
now? The country is in ruins, 10,000,000
Germans are dead and the rest are homeless.  
A policy called de- nazification has been
installed in an effort to clean house and start
from scratch. But its not that simple. The
occupation of a foreign country is a formidable
job.  Hitler found that out soon enough--not
only in Russia but Poland and Czechoslovakia.  
The Nazi party was 1% people like Goring and
Goebbels and Bormann and the rest wwere
bureaucrats.  A country is run by the
bureaucrats. The Allies cant throw all these
people in jail. At some point they will find
themselves doing business with some unsavory
characters.


This happened yesterday.

I was standing around.  There is a lot of
standing around in this place.  You stand
around, you stand around, you stand around.
I was talking to a man like me.  The safety of
his family is also a question mark. They are
somewhere in the East--a bad sign.

There was a tap on my shoulder.

I turned around.

It was Joachim Felixmuller.

He said: Hello Otto.

I stood staring.  He looked OK. A little thin and
bedraggled but with his limbs intact.

I threw my arms around him.

I hugged him tight.  I couldnt believe it.  At
least they hadnt gotten this one.

I started to cry.

I cried and cried. I cried like a baby.
EPILOGUE


Hans Koch

Hans Koch resumed his medical practice. Although
an active member of the party with close ties to
Goebbels he managed to escape the de-nazification
process. The occupation provided a steady source of
patients.  There was a an epidemic of venereal
disease and related disorders and a good
urologist--Nazi or no--was a valued commodity.
He resumed his art collecting activities. Again it was
the turmoil and chaos of the war that provided
many opportunities here. He was able to purchase
masterpieces at bargain rates. In a few years he
put together an outstanding collection of German
Expressionist Art.

Hans Koch remained a good friend of  Otto and
Martha Dix. He died in 1965.




Billy Wilder


Billy Wilder became Billy Wilder. Movies such as
Sunset Blvd, Double Indemnity, Some Like It Hot,
The Apt,
etc are well established as classics of the
American Cinema.

He took the money he made directing movies and
invested it in art. He favored Picasso, Matisse and
the Post-Impressionists such as Derain, Bonnard,
Vuillard, etc--and of course the Germans. Among
the Germans he collected Beckmann, Kirchener,
Corinth, Nolde (the anti-semite)--and Otto Dix.

Billy Wilder became a member of the advisory
board of the Los Angeles County Museum of Art and
used his influence and money and gift for incessant
badgering to establish a center for the study of
German Expressionist art.

The collection continues to grow. In 1970 a seperate
wing was added to provide for the collection.  
Several years later a businessman named Robert
Rifkind--a collecter who specialized in Expressionist
graphic art--lithos, woodcuts, engravings, ect--
donated a substantial chunk of this work.

In 1983 the museum assembled a show that
duplicated the Degenerate Art Show mounted by
the Nazis in Munich in 1937. It managed to gather
many of the original works--paintings, sculpture,
drawings and graphics--appearing in this show--
along with films, music, writings, that reflected the
mood of the period. It was a remarkable show and
enjoyed a huge success. It continued for three
months and drew 700,000 people.





FLETCHEIM

Fletcheim had his ups and downs--mostly down.
He never returned to Germany. He stayed in
England. He continued to operate his gallery but
was never able to establish himself with the success
he enjoyed in Germany. His health declined. He
developed diabetes and suffered the amputation of
a leg. His wife left him. He died in 1956




VERA

Vera married a British officer named Paul Rand--an
architect.   She moved to London and had three
children. She died in 1985. Among her papers were
a diary she kept during the war. Her brother was a
historian and decided to prepare the diary for
publication. It was published in the United States
under the title
Berlin Diaries. It became a
best-seller.



MAX BECKMANN

Max Beckmann spent the war in Holland--under
German occupation. He was left alone and
continued to paint. In 1946 he was offered a
teaching position in the United States at the
University of St Louis. He taught in St Louis for
three years and then moved to New York. He never
returned to Germany. He died in 1950.

In 1985 a retrospective of the work of Max
Beckmann occurred at the Los Angles County
Museum. It traveled from Los Angeles to Chicago,
Philadelphia, New York and Buffalo.



HANS lUCK

Hans Luck was handed over to the Russians. He was
deported to a Siberian province and spent 10 years
in a labor camp. It was an experience that did not
embitter him. He refused to let this happen. He
became fluent in Russian and made friends of his
captors.

He returned to Germany in 1955. He went to work
for a coffee export firm. He married and raised a
family. In spite of fighting on all three fronts for 6
years and playing an important role in Operation
Goodwood--a battle following D-day in which a
battered remnant of a single German division--
under Lucks command--held off 4 allied divisions
charged with the establishment of a bridgehead at
the _____river in the village of_____--Lucks name
rarely occurs in any of the histories of the war.


The military historian Stephen Ambrose took note of
this while attending a D-Day re-union function in
England in 1986 in which Luck was present. Luck
told Ambrose the following story.

This was in Normandy. All hell was breaking loose.  
The German lines had been penetrated and the
allies were pouring through. Luck was in retreat.
The problem was artillery. The flanks of the allies
were exposed and a few well positioned 88's could
inflict some heavy damage. But there were no 88's.  
Then he spotted an AA battery with four guns
pointing at the sky.  There was a captain in charge
smoking a cigarette,

Luck screeched to a halt.

He said: whats going on here?

The captain said something about air defense.

Luck said: air defense isnt the problem. The area is
swarming with tanks. I want you to move in
position to the north and blast away at the flank.

The captain said: my orders are air defense. I am
Luftwaffe. Fighting tanks is your job.

Luck: "He was about to turn away. I drew my pistol
and leveled it at him and said: either youre a dead
man or you can earn yourself a medal".

There were more stories in this vein--along with the
post war labor camp years in Russia.

Ambrose decided Luck should write a book.  The
title was
Panzer Commander.  It was published in
1990. Like the Albert Speer book and Veras Berlin
Diary it also became a best seller.



MARCEL DUCHAMP

Marcel Duchamp is a major figure in the art of the
20th century--despte his passion--and preference
for chess.

The British Art Historian Robert Hughes has said:
there are three names in the art of the 20th
century: Picasso, Cezanne and Marcel DuChamp.  
When you have said those three names you have
said it all.



JOACHIM FELIXMULLER

Joachim Felixmuller became a jazz musician.  He
took a trip to Paris in 1950 and there came under
the influence of the American jazz pianist Bud
Powell. Later he involved himself with another
American expatriate--Dexter Gordon. He performs
to this day. He tours Europe, South America, and
Japan. He spends 300 days a year on the road. He
said to a writer interviewing him for a Japanese
Jazz magazine: "I learned from the Americans two
things: how to play bop--and revive someone from
a heroin/induced coma".



ALBERT SPEER


Albert Speer went on trial at Nuremberg as a
as a war criminal.  He took full responsibility for the
deportation and forced labor of millions of POWSs
and refugees from the occupied countries--Poland,
Czechoslovakia, Russia. The conditions under which
these people were forced to work were little better
than the camps. They died by the thousands--by
the tens of thousands.

Speer insisted he knew nothing of what occurred in
the camps--although he knew something was going
on there. The camps were Himmlers dept. Speer
said he had been told by Karl Hanke--an associate
of Goebbels: dont ask.

Speer got 20 years; he escaped hanging. He barely
escaped hanging. The Russians  were for hanging
the lot. They were in a rage when Speer, and
several of the others escaped the noose

Speer served the entire 20 years--to the minute. He
was 40 when he went in and 60 when he got out. It
was an old 60.

He wrote a memoir--
Inside the Third Reich--that
became a huge seller. The book is Speers attempt
to explain the Hitler phenomenon. How could this
man--and a peasant to boot--with no education,
friends, contacts, money--become in the space of 14
years the ruler of Germany.

Speer went back and forth with this one and in the
end finally decided that it came down to one word:
charisma. There was an energy and this formidable
sense of purpose and power of the will that was
impossible to resist. In a room alone with him you
could not prevail. It was a mismatch. He would
pound and hammer and grind you down and fix you
with this blazing look and he made you believe. He
was the con artist of con artists.

Albert Speer died in 1985.




ADAM TROTT

Adam Trott was tried by the people court, found
guilty of treason and hung on sept 1944

The German resistance movement ended on a
dismal note--discredited not only by the German
people but the allies as well. It was the ill/fated plan
of a few brave souls to retrieve some shred of honor
for the German people. But the Allies didnt see it
that way. The Allies took a more simplified view: a
German--man, woman, child, Nazi--was a German.



HENRY MILLER

Henry Miller returned to the United States. He lived
in New York and then traveled around the country
and eventually settled in the Big Sur area of
California.

He continued to write. He married for the third and
fourth time and had two children.

In 1963--30 years after the book was written--
Tropic of Cancer was published in the United States.
 It became a best-seller. It was more than this--it
was a cultural phenomenon. It was greeted by the
critics in 2 ways: as a work of genius and a vile
piece of garbage. It was heavily censored and
banned for sale in 20 states.  The publisher--Grove
Press--had anticipated the commotion and was
eager o exploit it. A huge marketing campaign was
launched behind the book that zeroed in on the
issue of censorship and the 1st amendment and the
whole idea of porno and art and what was one or
the other, etc, and where to draw the line. It was
the view of Grove Press the line was to be drawn on
the other side of
Tropic of Cancer.

The law suits were flying.

There were several trials.  Grove Press assembled
an impressive team of media starved writers,
critics, english profs to take the stand on Millers
behalf.

Meanwhile the book sold. It sold, sold, sold. It hit
the best sellers list where it stayed for 46 weeks.  It
went into paperback--3 million copies worth.

Now all the books Miller had written in the last 30
years--20 volumes of fiction, , essays, travel,
criticism, etc--were rushed into print.

Miller--who had been living on his wits for 40
years--was rich. He moved to Los angeles and
bought a house with a pool in Pacific Palisades. He
married for the fifth time--a young chinese
woman--and had another child.

The writing tapered off. He became more interested
in painting.  He became a prolific painter of
watercolors. He wrote a small book about
painting--
To Paint is to Love Again.

Henry Miller died in 1987--age 92



BEUYS AND MOTHER EY

Beuys survived the war. In the same way as Dix he
was called up to serve in a  Volksturm unit. He
returned to Dresden--what was left of it. He
switched from sculpture back to drawing. The
drawings were proposals of projects in mind--
sculpture, installation projects, performance pieces
and tableaus that for one reason or another--mostly
due to the war--had never gotten off the ground.

There were several shows of this work.  it was well
received. It tuned in perfectly to the post -european
art scene.  It was a new scene.  The previous
generation of artists--Beckmann, NOlde, Kirchner,
Dix, etc--were finished.  They were dinosaurs--fine
for their time but this was not their time.

It was the time of Herr Feldstein who had cut his
dick off in Los Angeles, of Vito Acconci who had
himself shot in the arm, zapped by a cattle prod and
run over by a car; and it was the time of Frieda von
Manstein (daughter of the Field Marshall) who
took a mobil home trailer and stood it on end and
wrapped it in mattresses tied with baling wire.

This was the mood--the movement. A movement
needs an elder statesmen. This was Beuys. He
became the post-war Marcel Duchamp.


Mother Ey returned to Germany.

She re-opened her gallery.  She tried to work up
some enthusiasm for the younger artists but these
people were not her cup of tea. There was no real
conviction. And she was getting on. She was
pushing 70. Little by little she faded from the scene.

She died in 1954



HERMAN GORING

Goring was tried at Nuremberg and sentenced to
hang--as he predicted.

He kept his word about Hitler.  The issue was
loyalty. He saw it in this way: these people--Speer,
Hess, Ribbontrop, etc--owed everything to Hitler.  
They had shared a common struggle, a bitter defeat
and then an incredible triumph. They had lived like
kings--sultans. And it suited them. There were no
complaints. The idea of repudiating Hitler to save
their miserable necks was enraging to Goring.  And
to save them for what?  As he put it--to pee in front
and crap from behind a little longer.

It was in this mood Goring took the stand.  He was
cross examined by various allied lawyers and judges

He made short work of these people.  They were
out of their league here. Goring could play the
clown but this was a man who had survived 20
years of Nazi politics. He had wit and was very
good at thinking on his feet. He also had an intimate
knowledge of the last 12 years of German history.
He knew the details.

Goring hammered at a single point.  History was
written by the winners. War was war. It wasnt for
pussies.  People died. Both sides had fought with
great bitterness and hatred. What Germany had
done was no crime.  The crime was losing. What
about the English in India?  What about the United
States--all those indians and mexicans.  Russia
controlled half of Europe. Was she going to give
these countries back?

Etc, etc,

Goring had one more trick up his sleeve. He
managed to inform himself of the execution date
and the night before committed suicide by
swallowing poison.

The media had a field day. "Goring cheats Death!

This was the angle.

How he managed to do this--smuggle a cyanide pill
into his cell--when all these men were being
watched like hawks around the clock and
scrupulously searched three times a day--was
something that has never been satisfactorily
explained. The answer was: he was Goring. There
was genius here--a genius for figuring ways to
serve the needs of Herman Goring.




PHIL SPIEGELMAN

Phil Spiegelman mended his criminal ways. He was
shot in the leg while fleeing a bungled hijack
attempt--a truckload of Italian footwear--and
busted and sentenced to two years in state prison.

He did the two years and following release became
a bartender. This was a good job for him: it
provided steady access to a cash register. He was a
bartender for 47 years. He is retired and lives
in Palm Springs Calif.



Conrad Felixmuller


Conrad Felixmuller lived to be 90. He joined the
communist party after the war and moved the
family to East Germany.  For this reason his
reputation has never achieved the level of
Beckmann, Kokoshka, Kierchner--or Otto Dix
himself.

At the age of 60 Felimuller took up mountain
climbing.  He performed a number of difficult climbs
in the dentes Aguilles region of the French alps and
in 1954 was invited to join a German team led by
Maurice Herzog that performed th e first successful
assault on K2--the second highest mountain--and
generally consideidered a more perilous climb
than Everest.

Two years later he became the oldest climber to
ascend the north face of the Eiger in Switzerland.

He was interviewed following this feat and said: 2
things are required to be happy in life: a good
marriage and the willingness to risk your neck once
in a while



OTTO DIX


Martha Dix and the dix children survived the war.
They fled to the west and found refuge with family
relations in_____in  the province of______. This
part of Germany was safely in Allied hands--out
of reach of the Russians.

The family returned to Randegg to live.  Dix had
developed a taste for country life. It was the
solitude.  The solitude appealed to him. He liked to
say that at a certain point in your life your were
faced with two choices: boredom or aggravation.  
He chose boredom.

He continued to paint. A new style appeared--in the
alla prima vein. In the old days--applying the egg
tempera technique with its laborious build up of
layers of glazing a painting would take he would
labor patiently over a painting for weeks or even
months.

Now they were whacked out in a day--or an hour.

But there was something missing.  There was no
drawing here. It was in the drawing that the work of
Dix distinguished itself. He had mastered a style
that nimbly picked its way between caricature and
realism--and provided the energy and drive to the
earlier work--the great portraits of Sylvia Van
harden, Fletcheim, MeirGrafe and so forth.

This new work was too crude and sketchy. The
colors were mud. it was thrift store paintings. It had
value only because it came from the hand of Otto
Dix.

He had a few shows from time to time and the work
sold well. Meanwhile some recognition for the
earlier work of the 20's and 30's started to
arrive--elections to art committees and various
culture or the boards of various culture
organizations and the honorary degrees and so
forth.  He accepted it all in a gracious way--tho
admitting to friends it was a little on the late side.
Where were these people in 1933?

In 1955 he suffered a blow:  his daughter Nellie was
killed in a car crash. She was 30.

The last years of his life were devoted to a new
interest: astronomy. He became fascinated with this
subject. He read books and joined a club and went
on star gazing trips and built a telescope. He built
several scopes--including a giant beast with a
16 inch lens he ground himself.  The lens was
mounted in a steel armature that projected from a
spherical base that rotated within a bowl shaped
base lubricated with mercuryand the entire
assembly mounted on a gasoline driven cart.

In 1970 he used this scope to zero in on what
appeared to be a new galaxy in the constellation of
Ursa Major.

He took photos and wrote up his observations and
submitted the results to an astronomy journal.  The
evidence was checked out and verified

It was authentic. The galaxy was named Dix456.

Dix said the publication of this article gave him as
much pleasure as anything he ever painted.

He was once asked about this interest in the stars
that had captured his attention in such a profound
way.

He said: there are an endless number--and they
mind their fucking business!

Otto dix died in 1972 at the age of 78.


THE END!
dix and mother ey
*installment 18: war (in the camp)
The campaign Dix was called up to fight in was the Battle
of the Bulge. This was Hitlers last gasp. It was a desperation      
gamble that didnt have a prayer. It was similar to the         
original campaign of 1940 to invade France via the Ardennes.
There were two differences.  This wasnt the German army of      
1940. And they werent facing the French army of 1940. There     
was no air cover. The Luftwaffe was finished.

There were sufficient reserves to briefly sustain the drive         
and a few battles were won and moderate losses inflicted on     
the Allies. But the Allies quickly recovered and re grouped      
and began to drive the Germans back. The end was in sight.

It was only a question of time  and another 2 or 3 million dead
Germans.
The allies invaded France on June 6/44

The Germans knew the invasion was coming  but where?
It could happen near a large port  Cherbourg or leharve
it could happen in Normandy. It could happen in the south of    
France.

Hitler was inclined to suspect Normandy.  But where in         
Normandy? There were 200 miles of coastline to protect

He had assigned two men to thrash this one out: Rommel and
von  Rundstedt

They held opposing views. Rommels view was simple:
wherever  the allies landed they had to be met with sufficient
force to throw them back into the sea. The first 24 hours were
crucial.  Once they were allowed to establish a beachhead it
was all over. For this reason he wanted plenty of reserves on
hand.

In Rundsteds view  somewhat shared by Hitler   there was the  
strong possibility of a feint or diversionary assault to draw         
off troops and force the Germans to commit themselves. Then  
 the major attack would be launched elsewhere. For this
reason all reserve divisions should be stationed somewhat to
the rear  in a more flexible situation.

Hitler was inclined to support this view. But not entirely. He       
went back and forth. He agreed with one then the other then     
with neither.  It was reminiscent of Russia.

They went back and forth with each other and with the British.  
it was a gigantic battle of wits.

There was also the issue of air support.  There was no air         
support. The Luftwaffe was finished. There was nothing to be   
done about this

In the end the allies landed in Normandy, there was no feint,      
they brought their own pre fab harbors with them they banged
together on the spot, they had 100 per cent air cover, the         
Germans stalled and failed to react in time and in 3 days it         
was all over

Hitlers chief of staff Keitel got on the phone to Rundstedt in       
somewhat of a panic and said: what do we do!
Rundstedt said: end the war  you fools!
In the month following the invasion of Normandy an
attack was made on Hitlers life. This was the 20 July
plot.

There were numerous attempts to assassinate Hitler.
There were complications here. There was the problem
of the act itself. The security around Hitler was
formidable. Also he had an uncanny sense when it
came to these things.  There were several occasions
when a scheme was in place that seemed certain to
succeed but Hitler failed to make an appearance.

There was also the myth. You might succeed in the        
assassination attempt but a civil war was sure to follow.
It stood a chance only by getting the army to go along.

The invasion and rapid destruction of Poland and the     
occupation of France in 3 weeks did nothing to diminish
this conception of Hitler as a creature of fate.

Also: the army had sworn an oath of loyalty  not to
Germany  but to Hitler personally.  This was a powerful
deterrent. To revolt and betray this oath was
considered treason.

The movement  began to gather steam following the
invasion of  Russia. The Einsatzgruppen  the Himmler
death squads  sent to Poland to round up and liquidate
the jews and any other groups  suspected of harboring
anti/nazi sentiments--were commissioned  to do the
same in Russia. They were given carte blanche. It         
was an orgy of rape, torture, murder.  There were mass  
executions. It had a sickening effect on German officers.
 

It occurred to them that this veneration of Hitler--as
God--was a lie. They had been deceived in a big way
here.


One of the men to organize a coherent scheme with an
actual plan to direct the government of the country
following Hitlers death was an officer named von
Treskow. There were several others including Fabian
von Schlabrendorf who worked for the Office of Military
Intelligence under Canaris.

Treskow and Schlabrendorf had the job of actually
directing the assassination. These were brave souls.

The first attempt was made in Nov 43.  This incident
would make a good movie.  It was a combination of
Alfred Hitchcock and the Marx Brothers. Hitler was in
Russia  in Smolensk. From there he was flying back to  
his headquarters in east Germany.He had a staff officer
named Brandt who had accompanied him on this trip.

Treskow approached brandt and asked for a favor.
Would he take back with him on the plane a small
package containing two bottles of brandy for General
Steif  at headquarters. Brandt agreed.

At the airport Treskow showed up with the package
which he handed over to Brandt. Inside was the bomb.
It had a 30 minute fuse already ticking away.

The plane took off. it took off, flew back to Germany
and landed.

Back in Smolensk Schlabrendorf and Treskow were
huddled by a radio awaiting news of the explosion and
the death of Hitler. Nothing came. Two hours later they
heard Hitlers plane had landed safely.

Now they had a problem. General Steiff was not in on
the plot. Once Brandt delivered the package and Steiff
opened it and  took note of the contents within  
Schlabrendorf and Treskow  not to mention a whole
bunch of other people  were living dead men.

What to do? They discussed their options. It was a
short discussion. Treskow rang up Brandt at
headquarters. He asked Brandt if he had delivered the
package with the bottles of brandy to Steiff. Brandt said
he had not.  Treskow said there had been a mistake. he
had given him the wrong package. He said he himself
was flying to headquarters the next day on business       
and he would give him the right package. Brandt said
fine.

This actually occurred. Treskow flew in the next day
and gave Brandt a new package containing two bottles
of brandy. Brandt handed over package number one.
He fumbled it as he did so and nearly dropped it.

Treskow didnt bat an eye.

When Treskow opened the package to examine the
bomb he saw the fuse had worked. It had eaten its way
through to the striker which had also sprung. But the
detonator had failed.

It was Claus Von Stauffenberg who devised the 20 July
plot to bomb Hitlers headquarters in East Germany.
Stauffenberg had been recruited by Treskow. He was a
young officer who had fought under Rommel . He had
been  severely wounded. He suffered the loss of one
hand and three fingers of the other  also blinded in one
eye.

His assignment as a staff officer occasionally brought
him into contact with Hitler and it was decided that he
would use one of these occasions to plant a bomb.

On 20 July 1944 STauffenberg was invited to attend a
strategy conference in Hitlers headquarters in east
Germany. Staff appeared for the conference, he had
the bomb, he planted it and managed to excuse himself
from the room and 20 minutes later there was a huge
blast. The bomb  destroyed the room and killed three
people but Hitler escaped with minor injuries. His luck
had held.

The nazis sprung into action. The plot fell apart.

STauffenberg was arrested the same day and shot.
The others were gradually rounded up, arrested, tried,
convicted, hung. They were strangled with piano wire.
Injections of adrenalin were given to prolong
consciousness. The hangings were filmed and shown
to guests at the Berghof after dinner.
The Peoples Court was the Nazi version of the courts
established by Stalin that presided over the great purge
trials in 1937. Stalin had assembled a list of enemies he        
wished to eliminate and the man chosen to prosecute
these people was Andre Vishinksy. It was a good choice.  
Vishinksy had developed a technique inspired by the idea
of  non rebuttal. The guilt of the defendant was taken for
granted and a full confession was suggested for the sake
of  expediency. There were no options. This would save
time and trouble and  produce a favorable impression
upon the court. Possibly the court would be inclined to
show some mercy on the defendant  or his family.

Also it helps not to have a jury.

In Germany Hitler took careful note of all this. He had his
own candidate for this job  Roland Freisler. Freisler was a
lawyer who had fought in the war and was an  early
supporter of Hitler. He was sent to Moscow to observe         
the trials and study Vishinskys method. He proved an ace   
student. He became known as "Hitlers Vishinsky".